I woke up not liking myself very much today. I have many days like that. Anyone else? It’s when that lying devil gets between our ears and tells us that we aren’t enough, that we are so flawed, we’ll never get life right; we’re meant to be unhappy. I sometimes think my anxiety is a direct line from Satan trying to sabotage me through my own weakness.
When I get like this, I clean. I clean the house and somehow it feels like I can clean my soul. I was cleaning under my nightstand and I found this note from my daughter. I have no idea when she wrote it, or how it got there, but I know God put it there for me to find today. God’s love for us is bigger than the lies that creep into our thoughts when our guard is down. We can’t change our past, but we can try to do better going forward learning from the mistakes we make. They say failure is the best teacher. I just wish the lessons didn’t have to hurt so much. But maybe we wouldn’t learn if they didn’t.
We are not perfect, but we need to lean on God when we feel like this. I am good. You are good. I am enough and so are you, because of Him.